Longing to be loved

Why do I keep saying that I long for love? I don't even know if I want to be in a relationship... LOL! I am so flaky sometimes! I get lonely and think that a relationship is what I want.  The truth is that there is only one person that I love and because he and I can't be together, I don't want to be with anyone.  Am I blocking my blessings?  I just might be.  Ah well... the heart wants what the heart wants... Love is sooooo blind and all that... LOL!